Oh hey guys, Amanda C. here! It has been quite some time since our last blog post, as I am sure you’ve noticed. To say things got a bit crazy is an understatement. I was dealing with some family issues at the end of February, and unfortunately we had to say goodbye to my grandpa. Thankfully, I was lucky enough to be able to make the trip down to Texas to say my final goodbyes and be with my family. Once I got back, however, I started dealing with some anxiety on and off. I suppose that is to be expected after losing a loved one, but to say it doesn’t suck would be the understatement of the year. I am a creature of habit so whenever life throws it’s wrenches into my daily routine it’s like getting knocked off a balance beam.
I often find myself questioning, why? Why do I have to deal with anxiety on what feels like a day-to-day basis vs. a “normal” (and I use the term “normal” loosely) amount of anxiety? It’s annoying, inconvenient and downright exhausting at times. I sometimes feel like I am in a constant battle with my own mind. I am the type of person who has anxiety about the most ridiculous and off the wall things, I am 100% a “well, what if this happens or what if that happens” type of person. And if any of you are the same way, you know how that kind of thinking can literally send you spiraling down a rabbit hole. So lately I’ve been trying to focusing on myself and myself only. I know that could sound selfish to some people but I promise you in the long run, it’s not. I’ve been reading a lot of personal development (and from recent experience, I can tell you that personal development books are NOT created equal-but more on that later). I’ve been concentrating on my yoga practice and trying to bring balance back into my life. I’ve also been trying to focus on getting into new hobbies, while perfecting and continuing practice of old hobbies. With my tendency to overthink and over analyze everything, it’s important for me to find the sweet spot of keeping my mind busy, yet in a place of balance and peace.
Why am I telling you all of this? Just to let you know you’re not alone. Anxiety happens. Shit happens. Life happens. But what’s important is how we deal with these situations. And when things do happen just take one day at a time, one breath at a time. We’re all in this together.